Scorpio ♏️✨ 02|18|2020
Knocking on New Year’s door January 1st @ 12:00am didn’t mean 2020 wouldn’t take on some of 2019’s bad juju. I get that. However, the stress & exhaustion from the end of 2019 seeped into the beginning of my 2020 leaving a big stain & all-around “meh” mood that I just haven’t been able to shake.
The past year’s disappointments & struggles have continued weighing me down. Not going into detail but let’s just say this past year was really tough for me. A stay-at-home mom with little-to-no village has found out the ugly truth of being a SAHM without a village.
The shame & guilt & sadness & loneliness & overall stress from this early journey of motherhood really over-powered the rejuvenation & goal-oriented energy that is typically associated with “New Year” season. I’m the kind of person that needs that energy in order to make it through the rest of winter. Since the start of 2020, I’ve been searching for this energy. Today, I found it.
I’ve known for a while & could feel a change coming but it wasn’t until this morning that I woke up with “today is the day” vibes & “new chapter” energy.
Emotional exhaustion, pain in my heart, & the monotony of motherhood were getting the best of me. But today I picked myself up & I’m not looking back.
So I’m lighting a smudge stick,
Cleaning my house,
Clearing my mind,
And relaxing into a new chapter with some positive affirmations & healthy choices 🌱